RELATIONSHIP STATUS: LIFE

Let’s not be dramatic, your life doesn’t end even if it may feel that way at first. Mastering the art of letting go and moving on isn’t easy but it is always necessary. I believe when you feel you’ve done all you can do and even that doesn’t change the situation, it’s ok to let go. It’s okay to hurt. It’s okay to be upset. Allow yourself to actually feel whatever emotion you’re feeling but the key is to not allow yourself to remain in those circumstances forever. Once you allow yourself to feel the pain, take a deep breath x gracefully let go.  Locations, songs, films etc. will become emotional landmines but that’s okay, you were living life before they entered your path so guess what… You can live life once you remove them as well. Take a trip. Spend more time with loved ones. Buy yourself something. Treat yourself to a nice meal. Each day may be a battle but the longer you refrain from moving on the harder it’ll be.  I had to remind myself why I let go of this person… I had to remind myself that this person was no longer making me happy. Although my love for this person is unconditional, I felt like there was a dark cloud hovering over my spirit. I didn’t understand how a lover could try to convince their significant other (when they’re on dirt), that what they’re doing is “meaningless and nothing to them”. A room full of laughter and love with playful grabbing and joking around turned into a room of silence with an arm over my shoulder. Not the silence where you listen to your lover breathe, chest beating type of silence. Me there, sitting… In silence… Thinking... This isn’t for me. I felt empty and restless. We used to sit and lay peacefully, me resting my head on his chest… Feeling safe and secure... Which eventually led to me forcing myself to go to sleep while laying with him, hoping I could wake up and all the pain would go away. All the excuses will be forgotten. We could start fresh again. He’ll be that loving spirit I fell in love with many years ago over and over again but nothing felt right anymore. Everything felt wrong. I felt like I was with the wrong person at the right time— meaning this was all one big lesson. A lesson teaching me I cannot love another who doesn’t truly love themselves.  I can’t be vulnerable with a person I lost respect for and no longer trust. If a person doesn’t know who they are and what they want out of life, they can misguide you along the way. It’s okay to let go. Letting go isn’t giving up on a person. It’s just a thing called moving on.